I’m working on renovating.
There was a moment when I suddenly realized that I was going to be a mother. WHAT?! This canNOT be right.
I can’t balance my checkbook, I barely keep my house clean enough for the average human to sustain life, I am a mediocre cook, I like to sleep late, I like to stay up late, I watch too much TV, I’d rather eat Doritos & Diet Coke than anything else, and I don’t finish most things that I start.
Who would put me in charge of a whole life? Really?
So I looked in the mirror and around the house and decided to renovate. Not the house, really, just me. I am feeling a bit of a call to “grow up.” Part of me is dying inside at the mere suggestion. Grow up? I never really planned to do that. Never. However, there are somethings I’d like to be in a bit better order before I am charged with a lifetime of care for the little guy. I still plan on listening to music that is inappropriate for my age, giving my son a mohawk, and I still have my eye on that diaper bag with the skull & crossbones… but there are a few things that need to be different.
1. Less TV. The baby is really just an excuse. I have been feeling my soul being actually sucked out of my eyeballs into the TV screen each night. I am not giving it up (you have me hooked, you glowing electronic enchantress!) just cutting back to only the shows I love (Read: The Office, 30 Rock, the occasional SNL…)
2. Get organized. We moved into the house in October in a ball of fury. Everything was put together in less than a week. Paint, pictures hung, furniture placed, boxes stashed away. Now we are re-thinking our hasty ideas. We are wondering where all the baby’s stuff will actually go… so we need to re-work our system.
3. Less laziness. I hear that you will be forced out of being lazy because babies don’t work like snooze alarms. I can’t just pat him on the head and get 9 more minutes of sleep. I am not sure how to get a head start on this one… laziness is just part of who I am. I like sleeping. I like doing nothing. Perhaps #1 & #2 will help with this one. We’ll see.
There are a few other things on my mind, but we’ll start with this for now. I’m working on the transition into a life that isn’t all about me. I’m hoping for a jumpstart.
Cheers to renovations & spring cleaning!