Okay… today has been a pretty roller-coaster like day. I woke up this morning forgetting that today I am supposed to do my 6 month evaluation with Pastor K. YIKES! I am supposed to prepare 6 questions for evaluation. CRAP! So I shuffle into work at 9:15 and work on my 6 questions. I’d like to share them with you…
In the last 6 months…
1. What have you learned?
2. What have been your disappointments & frustrations?
3. What has surprised you?
4. What’s going well? (YEA GOD!)
5. How has the support been from your ministry team?
6. What limits your success?
I really dreaded this evaluation. The past six months have been tough for me. I made some stupid choices and have been trying to get over some insecurities that get in the way of ministry. I knew it wasn’t going to be pretty. Overall, it was good. I cried (dang, I always do that). I didn’t cry when my pastor told me that I had some issues or when he said I needed to work on recruiting volunteers. I cried when he told me I am gifted and a rare mix of qualities that our staff needs. I cried. Not because I was happy. Not because I love to hear it. I have been thinking all afternoon… why did that make me cry? Don’t I believe him? I know in my head that I am gifted, that I can do my job, that I have what it takes. I know those things… Right?
I hope so. I just got through telling a friend last night that God has given her so many gifts. That she is a necessary part of the church. That her mix of experience, personality, and gifts make her totally unique. I told her that God will give her everything that she needs to do what He needs her to do. I believe that He will. I believe He’ll give her more than that. Do I believe it for myself? I guess I feel like a hypocrite. Sheesh, Tia, take your own advice!
May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word. – 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17